"Do not ignore it. Fuck it. Cry your heart out. Then fuck it some more"
"If you can get some stuff done in the chaos sometimes, god bless you. If you can basically hold it together, propping yourself up with duct tape and glue, rock on. If you can manage stay upright even one hour a day, you’re doing pretty great, as far as I’m concerned. And if you can be kind to the other stumbling fools around you half the time - well, that’s just heroic."
"Hanging out on the edge of the cliff does not mean you have to jump."
a woman I met who has learned to live with
her suicidal thoughts for 40 years. (via freeingeileen
"i am living with this constant guilt
that settles in the pit of my stomach
like a pile of coal so heavy
any movement at all is a struggle
i am living with this guilt of being a failure
and being a burden to my family
because they have spent so much money to keep me alive and well
but i am nothing but a disappointment,
this guilt of being sad at all
because i live so comfortably but there are people
out in the cold who have it so much worse than me,
this guilt of being ungrateful for the family i wish i didn’t have
when some people don’t have one at all,
this guilt of not wanting to eat
when there are starving people who deserve so much more than what they are getting,
this guilt of needing anything from heat to money to clothes
because everyone knows i don’t deserve it,
this guilt of wanting to die
because there are so many fighting for their lives
when i don’t even want mine,
this guilt of living in general because i don’t deserve to
and i’m just here taking up valuable oxygen
when i could be rotting in the ground
and at least then my flesh would be recycled into the environment and
i’d finally be worth something."